Friendships.
Family.
A Relationship.
Relationships.
I can tell you, I've lost friendships and have gained great ones. I've gained a great relationship and I've floated away with my relationship with my family except my brother's and today i just spent time with my mom. It made me happy because i could just talk to her about anything, including about my relationship with my dad and also we didn't really get into an argument today which is weird for me and her. We fight about the most ridiculous things EVER. Now if you know me, i don't agree with everything my mom says and i consider my mother as a woman who always has her head in the clouds. Also like my brother says as a joke that," Oh, mom isnt home. Well... she's really not here physically or mentally." We do love our mom dearly even though she doesnt realize shes a sinner and she needs Christ. It breaks my heart. Thinking back to my time at Morro Bay with the girls from Discipleship including: Amy Bender, Savy, Ashy, Kay, and Lauren, Bekah and Amber talked about relationships. And with our relationships with each other as brothers and sisters in Christ, we need to keep each other accountable and when i heard that, something hit me. I remembered that Andy told me that i had to keep trying with my parents, to keep on persevering on telling them about Christ. Who He is and How wonderful and amazing He is. As i thought this, i realized that i havent been trying and i've been failing at that. Also it hit me that, i havent been talking to people like i used to at PV. Just because i'm at a different school, as a new kid, freshman, doesnt mean that should stop me from talking to people about Christ. I loved that Girl's Retreat it made me realize how such a failure i am. Even though my family is not saved and that grief will always be with me until they are saved, even though i know Christ and i am known as a godly lady to my church and to whoever who knows me, I HAVE TAKEN FOR GRANTED MY RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST WHICH I DO NOT DESERVE AT ALL.
